I have decided to start a journey into the world of yoga.  I am convinced it will change my life.  I know there will be challenges along the way but I need the challenge in my life... something has to change, and NOW.  Yoga is not just a good work-out, but really a complete mental, physiological, and spiritual transformation-- it is a way of life.  It is something that used to be part of my daily routine, but I have since gotten lazy and unmotivated, nor did I ever make it my lifestyle.  This site is a wonderful tool for anyone who wants to start or strengthen their practice  http://www.myyogaonline.com/.  I would highly recommend it to anyone seeking information as well. 
       Nicole and I are together and have been for 3 months now   We are very happy together and are continuing to get along swimmingly with our roommates.  Money problems and mental/spiritual/physical unrest aside, life is pretty good.  Nicole is the woman i mentioned in my previous post when I was asking if love was worth the risk.  Well Love, I took a risk and you were worth it, so if anyone is battling the same thing, my advise is to go for it because you never know what you would have been missing.  In my case it's pretty great   I think it will be even better once I get all my ducks in a row.  I feel like i haven't been myself lately; instead I feel like I'm being torn in too many different directions, and the result is irritability, fatigue, overwhelm, apathy, and laziness.  I feel bad for the people around me because I know they feel it too.  Well luckily I'm making strides in the right direction to change all of that.  I am sure I will feel a difference, and I will record my progress here in my lovely blog
             Remember your life is YOUR story to write, not anyone elses.  Make choices that will bring you happiness and leave behind the ones that bring you suffering. 

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It may be a pretty pointless question...
        
         but why does it pour when it rains?

It seems like when I am in the middle of a financial hardship for one reason or another, everything ends up costing me money at the same time.  I got into a car accident about two weeks ago--a bad one.  I am (somehow) fine, but my car is totaled.  I was driving on 190 westbound and I hydroplaned, hit my brake and lost control, spun into a a guardrail, and bounced off of it and hit the cement wall on the other side of the road.  I took out about 30ft of the guardrail, and completely smashed my car.  My airbags did NOT deploy even though they should have, and now I have to buy a new car, PLUS my insurance only covers my rental until tomorrow.  So that is part of the financial crisis.  On top of that, my phone is on the fritz and I think my computer is on its last thread (knock on wood)... however I just installed the latest version of Ubuntu, and my computer is running swimmingly with a shiny new operating system 

       This morning I found out my best friend was in the hospital yesterday.   She is in pain, but up and walking around.  We are not really sure what is going on, but she is at work awaiting test results.  I feel bad for being so out of the loop... it is partial thanks to my stupid phone, which I suspect is seriously delaying my text messages. 

       I will be happy when everything is peaceful again.  I think I'll cook this morning...that should help.    Cooking is my meditation when the rest of the world wonks out.  Unfortunately my mom is home...and very depressed and cranky, which as you know is extremely contagious.  If she were in a good mood it would be fine, but because she's not, I can't become "chef zen" and dig in and get messy with "Charmed" playing in the background.  That is my happy place.  *sigh*  Another time I guess.  Tofu scramble it is.  mmmm.